IT’S BEEN YEARS. I FINALLY MANAGE TO FORGET AND THEN THE SMELL OF STRAWBERRY BUBBLE GUM BRINGS you BACK. THEN THE MEMORIES COME, NOT GRADUALLY BUT LIKE A TSUNAMI PASSING OVER MY MIND, FLOODING IT WITH THOUGHTS OF you AND DESTROYING ANY PROGRESS I MADE. DESTROYING MY BALANCE. MY LEGS GIVE OUT I COLLAPSE. ON THE FLOOR I’M DROWNING FROM THE INSIDE, I GASP FOR AIR BUT I CANT BREATHE SO MY BODY EMPTIES THE WATER THROUGH MY EYES. GASPING FOR AIR WITH WATER FLOWING FROM MY EYES AND I CAN’T REMEMBER HOW TO BREATHE. I REMEMBER you. ONLY you. I’M DROWNING. I NEED TO SAVE MYSELF SO I LET THICK WATER FLOW OM MY WRISTS. I TASTE THE SALT FROM THE TIDAL WAVE AND THE IRON FROM THE RUINS OF MY MIND. I SPEND ALL NIGHT DROWNING ON THE FLOOR. THE SUN RISES AND DRIES ME UP I WASH THE SALT AND IRON OFF OF MY BODY. I FORGET. I INHALE AND SAVE MY BREATH FOR THE NEXT WAVE.
tumblr is not what it use to be for me… i used to love it and now it’s just eh